Monday, August 25, 2008

Nobody Knows- Tony Rich

I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
and I'm dying inside
and nobody knows it but me
like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
and I'm cryin' inside
and nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly
but you're nowhere around

chorus
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
and I just keep thikin' 'bout the love that we had
and I'm missin' you
and nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
and I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night as if I thought
you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
and nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
but like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn
all apart
A million words wouldn't say just how
I feel
A million years from now ya know
I'll be lovin' you still

chorus

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the
dusty road
gonna find you whereever, ever you
might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope
you come back to me
said when the nights are lonely...

chorus







Wonderfull wonderful song.....wouldnt write it better myself!

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Sadness and Rage.

To say i am sad or angry would be an understatement,
rage and dismay do not come close to describing it.
Violence begets violence,
death begets death.
only thing left is vengeance.

I believe that common sense aint that common as its taunted to be, i believe that there are not as many sane people as there are insane.

I believe i have a high enough an IQ to grasp most common concepts, to understand some of the most basic and fundamental concepts such as "life is sacred, protect it" and "Obey the rule of law", it seems to some that is just too complicated an idea to wrap their little heads around.


Yet at this moment in time i am well and ready to disregard the advice of the little angel in my head, telling me not to go out and hunt the killers and put them to death, that justice will prevail.

Justice? What justice? Did they give him any justice beating him to death, on a whim? How dare they deliver a death sentence on an innocent man? How dare they!?

Its the actions of a mob that has no evidence other than the "non spark" of cells believed to be the grey matter between their ears 'Mwizi!!' that make me loose faith in the Human species.
To clobber a defenseless man, is inhumane, barbaric,...[insert unprintable words here].

I never imagined i would sink to such a low.

Friday, June 27, 2008

Weekend out.....

Its been soo long since i blogged, im tempted to sema i was nursing a hang over after a really eventful weekend but truth is ive been suffering writers block or is it bloggers block?
Lets see if the creative juices will start flowing again (lol as if they were in the first place..)

Friday

So last weekend started with a blast! Went for Idols Africa show at the Bomas of Kenya and was pampered like a true member of the media, entry courtesy of my good Uncle (thanx man!) The show was off the chains (or watever 'hip' kids say nnowadays :-) Awet care to help? ). The audience was crazy, cheering like their lives depended on it. Lets backtrack a lil bit, before entering the hall, we were hapo nje catching a few 'tanyes' (Tusker in the words of Modo) surveying the crowd as they lined up to get into the hall (our seats were reserved, i mean....The Media!) and im telling you Nairobi has mamas! Waaaaat!! I was huko mwagaing the proverbial mate its like i was suffering from Downs syndrome. But yenyewe chix never cease to amaze me, there had to be a 'Lady' with the IQ of a door knob (YES offence), how oh how do you come to such an event at 7:30 usiku in nylon hot pants!? Who the hell said you have to show hectares of skin to look sexy? A gurl can look sexy as well as SANE all covered up! So after downing our favorite lager at lightening speeds, we were ushered into the hall ready for the performances....with a few mls of alcohol in the system, a chik next to me....life at that time was goood.....:-)
The whole experience was super but i have one bone to pick with the MNET people, why the hell was the sound so pathetic! I mean they are supposedly looking for the most talented and thus making them sound good to the audience should be at the top of the list shouldnt it? Im hoping it was a one time thing and leo theyl step up and the sound will be as good as their orgainsation of the whole thing which is FAB!! Oh! I must say Amara was looooking HOOOOTT!! And i hope she wins. GO AMARA, GO AMARA! SATO
Now on sato there was like the most awaited event since like i donno, new years? Tusker Safari Sevens! As usual it didnt disappoint with what looked like the whole of the Nairobi youth packed on the sidelines of the pitch as well as the Village grounds. Even with a steep entry price of 800 bob the place was still packed, yenyewe Kenyans have cash to spend. As usual there had to be ladies with the philosophy of "freeze and shine". I had a sweater and i was freezing, now i wonder how a chick in a mini skirt and her boobs half out was feeling..... I rest my case!
Kenya did us proud as usual, and went ahead to win the cup on sunday.....though i can bet half of the people there have no idea wat a try is......
The rest of that night is a blur and i dont want to try n remember what i got up to....it brings on a headache.. :-)

SUNDAY
In the wee hours of relative morning for me (4pm) a pal of mine was at the door waking me up...
Now the night before was crazy and even after almost 10 hours of slumber, it was a real task to walk straight. So now my lovely neighbour hooks me up with tikos for Tusker Project fame 2, the final show.....who am i to refuse, twould be just rude now wouldnt it?
Mimi huyo kwa shower and on the road to Ruaraka where the shows at, wit ma cuzo.
Again, chix are huko in plenty, so im thinking if you kosa a better half in Nairobi yenyewe its ur choosing and no one elses cause waaaat!!! i should walk with an infants feeder cuz of all the drooling. So we check into the bar and behold!! Factory prices!!!

{Aaaaaahhhhh (angelic melody)}

Unfortunately im still undergoing detox from the night before so i kamata soda instead (Smirnoff Black ice).... i mean i have to hold something....

So down the kamroad we go to the main tent where the performance is at, lakini after being pigwad terro (which is highly uncomfortable if i might add, esp when the guy smiles as he pats you down politeness NUTTING!!) Awe and behold, the ammount of disorganisation there would put ma wardrobe to shame, and thats saying something...ask ma brother! The place is packed to the brim and guys are squeezing themselves like sardines in a can.

After a lil spat with some intoxicated brawn and no brains guy i relinquish the kidogo space id patad and anza scavenging for a spot to fix at least one but cheek. Lets just say im not a confrontational kinda guy plus did i mention the brawn part? Nuff said!

So i pata a place to sit on some hard mbao step all alone, wit ma cuzo and Uncle huko mbali, had to make do with what i had so i stayd put.

The tripple distilled vodo and a lemon twist in the form of Black ice awakened the dregs of last night intoxicating element in the deeps of ma tumbo with crazy effects, e.g. lack of balance, i had to stand and let a chick through and in the process i mwagiad the remains of ma drink to a chick who was sitting hapo mbele yangu and waaaat! The machos i was given! If looks could kill id have been strangled, drowned, shot, my throat slit and burned all at once! You know wat, i blame the earths rotation for that spill man im sure it jerked!

The show none the less was incredible, the sound was perfect! As in wow!

The show was totally worth sitting on the hard mbao for like two hours, considering i have minimal to none cushioning if you get wat i mean.....

The outcome was rather bogus though, in my humble opinion Wendy should have won instead of Esther, but well thats how it went down.

All in all, a super weekend!

Pic of the Day














Playlist
Im with you- Avril Lavigne
Mamacita- Coolie buddz
Goodlife- Kanye West
Ti-chi- Kenrazy
Just like a pill- Pink

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

An out of town experience....

Wow, its been too long since i blogged......bloggers block i guess and the lack of affordable internet access.
I hope that will change in the near future with the completion of The East African Marine System (TEAMS) and the completion of laying of the terestial cable. Ama they just introduce "The Grid" mara moja!

Anyhuu, about my out of town experience......
I love driving, as in totally! Be it in town at a snails pace or on an open highway at break neck speeds i love every minute of it! Before i got my license i used to wonder what people meant when they sema ati they tired of driving!? Wat! I can drive from Dawn to Dusk only stopping for lunch and taking a leak!
Now we wer off to the Valley town of Nakuru to visit ma uncle, crawling at a speed of like 100kph when suddenly at Kinungi a thick blanket of for just engulfed us as in THICK THICK THICK stuff! It was a strugglr to see the end of our cars bonet!! Visibility must have been in the negative but then agen one couldnt see behind either! :-)
So thick that a huge truck would like form right before your eyes on the other lane, one min thers nothing the next a 10 tonne lorry has whizzed past you, now thats horror!
As suddenly as it came about it just potead as we were going down the escarpment....true! It is a Magical Kenya!

AOB
I honestly cant put in words my disappointment with the government intelligence machinery. More than 600 people had to die so that they can send help in the form of Military, Administration police and regular police to catch the SLDF leader Wycliffe Matokei? In 18 months a parallel government had been established in Mt. Elgon complete with even courts in the middle of the forest!! After the Joint operation was launched and most of the SLDF caught or Killed, the Kenya police aired a documentary on National Tv recently, mildly boasting of how they were able to capture the milita without a simple casualty suffered by the joint operation but a simple question comes to the fore,it took that long and that many people for the government/intelligence agency to realise there is a problem?
Im afraid Uganda may take over most of western Kenya and we wouldnt have a clue!

Pic of the Day
If you have the displeasure of watching this dude perform.....











Guess thats an insult to Usher too....

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Random thought......

Ever wondered how the future will look like?
Well i have. (A pal of mine thinks i think alot about everything, well i think my pal daent think much about anything.)
From how ill look like to wat ill be doing to if ill be blessed to have a wife.
But i digress, what amazes me the most is the technological advancements we'll have made in the next 30 years and by we i mean others other than Kenya. I mean we have some really brilliant people in Kenya as in people you go like, WOW! But somehow dude to their faults or faults as a country we never appear anywhere on the global sphere in terms of technological innovation! Did you know a Kenyan was involved or is it that the Kenyan wrote the software for Nokia 3310? What i must think is the most successful phone ever, well in ma books at least! I digress agen..
Im just from reading about an article about "The Grid" and im like wow!!
Imagine getting internet together with ur elec. As in if you have elec you hooked up to the net! As in giga bit speeds!!
{moment of silence}
That is what the future is to me! Being able to have a video conference with someone at the cost of a local call of Celtels 3bob a min. Having a conversation with a hologram of the person you talking to, downloading a whole movie in seconds. Downloading albums in miliseconds. Yeah thats the s***t!

Monday, May 12, 2008

Love loss or loveless

Ever wonder if true love exists? Where both parties are just ecstatic to see each other every morning for 50 something years?

With my dismal number of years on this earth, 21 going on 40 would it be possible for me to have experienced true love if ever it did exist?
As mommy says(yeah i did say mommy) Love for her is a doing word, a verb, her love for people is potrayed in her actions for the funny feeling in the stomach and the sleepless minutes thinking bout him/her.....before you sleep......just last but a second.
To many of us "love" would be just a feeling one drummed into our head by the various productions of Hollywood which we(as a generalisation) sit and watch keenly expecting for that prince charming to ride over and rescue you from ur tower only for shrek to come trotting, or for 'the girl next door' to ring ur door bell.
The corruption of the minds and/or perceptions of this our generation is obvious in the number of people who are glued to the latest south american soap waiting and watching for "Fernandos" next move only wishing her man would act just like him! Im not just hitting at the ladies here pliz dont get me wrong it takes two to tango!
Its saddening how the word love has been thrown around and lost meaning!

AOB
This week end i went for the most amazing ride ever!!( No not that ride dumdums!! Get ur minds out of the gutter! Yes you!)
Any way, Ive always wondered why people on a roller coaster scream their guts out, well the ones ive seen on telly and on movies and stuff) i mean, its just going fast right? And its fun to go fast.
Well i got to find out a lil about how they feel. I went on this "banana" ride. A banana shaped thingy which can go a full 360 degree vertical spin......slowly!
Lemmi emphasize on the slowly part since, it fikas the top and for like 3 or so seconds its at a standstill when ur totally upside down!
Now, this may not freak you out but for someone who practically has a phobia for heights, it freaked me out!
Thers a point it fikas when ur body is totally off the seat and only a metal bar stands in the way of certain death, by falling! Thats the point my legs started vibrating violently on their own accord. The ride waz sick! Wiked! Full of adrenaline! And guess wat?
I hopped back in for another round!

Sunday, May 4, 2008

WTF!!!

Its been a hectic time for me, mpaka writing a post has been a biff. What have i been doing?
Dont even ask......causei have the slightest idea myself. Confused? Yeah! Welcome to my world!

Anyhuu, the other night i was having a quiet night in with Mily watching The West Wing-im totally addicted to that thing- in the comfort of my bed when i heard some flattering....i was using headphones so i ignored it concluding i have an overactive imagination which i do have....
So i put on back the headphones and was soon engrossed in the activities of staff in the west wing of the white house. A few minutes later the same flattering, i was sure i heard it this time so i sat up and squinted through the mosquito net to see if id make out anything in the darkness of may room, but of course i could not! Ok now i was getting freaked out so i drew Mily closer. (That sentence was added for dramatic effect as no such thing happened, just so that we clear :-))

I was saved the squinting when the source of the disturbance drew closer and landed right on the net right above my head, at which point i shrieked like a little girl and called for mommy. (Again that last statement was added for dramatic effect, as i said i have an overactive imagination). In between the shrieking and heart pounding i was able to belt out a clear, calm and collected WTF!!

{pause}

I should give you the background first...
Lets see, how do i put this, we live in the bundus! As in kichakani! At one point i was unsure of the number of creatures that call home, home. The list is too long to list. (aint english the weirdest language? list..list). In school home was refered to as Burundi, The desert, Ocha, Nowhere as well as the Land far far far away.(I supposedly watched nowhere news, and read Nowhere Daily and if i had a dog twas named courage the cowardly Dog). It was one of the wonders of the world how on earth i managed to get to school before anyone, including those who lived a stone throw away. Anyhuu i digress.
We live in th middle of nowhere.

{play}

A few inches from my face, with only a mosquito net between us was a bat!
Yup an ugly, ugly, ugly bat.
At this point im tempted to exaggerate and sema twas a big and blood thirsty.....but....twas a small thing but really ugly!
Lets keep in mind IT WAS A BAT.


So now in a split of a second, i was out of bed and standing by the door lights on with a slipper in hand wondering wat to do.
For like 10 minutes i stood there wondering wat to do with the bloddy bat or just go sleep in another room, but Mily....couldnt leave Mily there! :-)

Long story short, i chuked one of those wire hangers from the wardrobe and unfolded it so i could skuma the ugly mammal at arms + hangers length out of my room! And was soon reunited with dear Mily!

Moral of the story:
Do not live in a land far far away!
Or just buy Bat spray.....

AOB
No Mily has not taken the place of my girlfriend.

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Playlist:

Im feeling Leona Lewis for some reason
Leona Lewis- Im you
Leona Lewis- Bleeding love
Leona Lewis- Moment like this

Keisha Cole - Heaven sent
Heather Headley- Rain
Heather Headley- How many times